testing, fooling & crying is "US"

its been exactly twenty five days, nine hours and twenty one minutes since the last time that two hearts were like, lets just say, "tied" with each other. they used to be sweet, very sweet, and though they were indeed two in number, they were regarded as one , beating the same rhythm.... we both agreed.....

it was for unknown reason that suddenly, the two hearts separated. it was painful and i thought the cut would be unending. did cry..... asked and wondered..... yet no answers were availing.

two hearts let time passed, hoping it'll be for the better. no questions, no answers and no comments whatsoever. no explanations, no apologies. no everything. simple ordinary day, so we thought. time will heal the wounds..... the heavens will bear the cuts,.... we believed....

indeed, two hearts tried to be casual.. of understanding the underlying uncertain reason for the changes.... great change. tried to forget the rhythm that they once beat and tried to erase all the good things shared. we thought everything is okay. so we thought......

until, two hearts tested whether they could manage to go face to face again. as if nothing happened. and nothing will matter already. come the day we went out together again , after all the rhythm, cuts and reality of rejections..... we hoped we can do it..... we'll do it.....

sure, two hearts made it. talked and saw each other as if nothing happened really. very casual. the way they used to (?) wondering was gone.... wanting for clarity and explanations faded away. we succeeded....... we made it (?).......

yet, two hearts can never fool themselves. your eyes still speaks of wanting and the touch still calls for caress. my words still means affection and the gesture still long for flame we used to share.... we have tested the waters...... yet we failed....

no matter how two hearts try to deny... no matter how two hearts try to hide.... the truth hurts still..... we still feel the way we used to. only that we're both dreamin' now.... we now claim that we are no humans.... that we are machines..... numbed and totally hardened by time..... we used to be for real but reality has ended.... now.... we chose to live in fantasy (or a reality?)...... that two hearts can never be one!

we tested the waters,..... initially, we won... so we thought...... we tested it again after the rainy days..... we erred this time! ..... for all we knew, we were the champion.... but in the end.... i know, you know and we both know, we both are losers! because we can never be who we want to be with each other!

holy angels crying on the rain.... petitioning for forgiveness from the heavens yet refused to follow the way he wanted us to walk through.

two hearts tested fooling and ended up crying!