wrong sent

heart's day is over. but its nice to remember though what have happened during that day.

i received a lot of greetings both from old and new friends on the 14th . i decided to let the day pass by unnoticed, because i really dont want to think of the occassion. and so i ignored all of them.

was late afternoon when my cellphone beeped....a new message. i thought it was my lady lawyer friend whom i have a rendesvouz for that night. i eagerly opened it only to find out that its a message coming from a person who have been the reason of me forgetting of the heart's day occassion.

the greatest shock of my life indeed. imagine, the person who is projecting to me that i'm nothing, and that he doest care, now txting me HAPPY VELENTINES DAY" ?....... wow! one hell of a miracle, right?

that moment, no scintilla of happiness emerged inside me. like, this bullshit creature of god, who have caused me pain for so long when he under estimated my being me. i mean, ... i cant think of any reason for him to hurt me that much.... but still he did. i have no choice. i have to take it and simply have to get used to live alone without him as a friend.

i have managed to move on. it was hard..so hard... indeed. if only i could let everybody reading this now the cuts i received for doing something that is totally against my will, i will definately will, but my words are not enough to describe it, because the hurting was beyond compare...

im almost okay,.... have tried killing every feeling that i have inside me.tried to be numbed too. somehow i was succeeding and was doing quite well with my own world when suddenly, here you come again????!!!!

its just a text message, i know, but you have just elevated your being a pretender and the great liar of all times!!! the guts of greeting me happy heart's day when you are the very reason who have killed my heart!? the guts of texting my number a message that is supposed to be not mine? trying to fake everything again? to fake me? of what? that you wanted to greet me, only that you dont want me to know that you care? trying to have some stories again?

was a message that is not for me as you wanted me to believe it. was a wrong sent. just but proper to return it back to you.