the day you said goodbye..

"so, this is it, i have to go. thank you for everything..."

he held my hand, embraced me and then he went. god! its too painful and I could feel how that situation squeezed my heart. for a while, i felt that my world will collapse. i wanted to cry but i simply cant because i know, he would not want me to be in blue. until the last moment of our togetherness, i made it a point that i will follow the things he would want me to do. thats how much i love him....

i hope someday,i'll see him again. embrace him once more and togther we'll share the good moments we shared. he is not just a friend. more than a brother. better than a lover and will forever be a part of my life. perhaps, i may have been a fool to love him this much for i know, the many uncertainties along the way but i think of it no more now. what is important i guess is that, we tried to be ourselves... feel the love we both have and accept the fact that we cant live in hyprocracy the entire time.

i would want to say, we'll be together again but i would not want to expect. i know, everything comes with a purpose and i would want to believe that this day of saying goodbye is a matter of testing how far can we go. i know we can make it and we will surely will.