broken promise

its never easily expecting for promises to happen. of course, we hate to have false hopes but sometimes, whether we like it or not, it really happen and its really a pain in the ass. you can just imagine being promised to have this and that by somebody whom you thought to be so true, yet at the winked of an eye, everything has changed (?). well, promises are made to be broken, so they say, but i always believe that that would depends to the person making the same.

i once thought that when a person makes a promise to sombody loved by him, said promise will be, as much as possible be realized. understandably ... its not all the time that when you promise something, that will eventually happen because this world indeed revolves in the term called "change". the weather for one can be a great factor of not fulfilling a promise and we cannot just hate people who cant make it due to bad weather right? that would be unfair. unavoidable circumstances indeed could be a good excuse and it is indeed one of the best escuses we could utilize for promises broken.

the consuelo would probably be to show that there were efforts exerted to have it done yet, nature has prevented it to happen. very valid ? indeed!

it is another story though when someone promises you to do something yet for some personal gratification , that promise cannot be fulfilled. reasons would be because he just would not want to do it? he doesnt mind about you? i dont know. whatever!

priorty of things come into play and sacrificial lambs become the set up of the story. dropping less important and choosing things which will be beneficial to you. that is very human nature. personally, i bite that idea because to think of one's self before anybody else is the basic instinct of man. yet caution must be done...

realistic as it may, the question is, is it proper? it is right to SOLELY cancell a promise at the winked of an eye knowing fuly well that someone is expecting it to happen? aside from the fact that you gave your assurance? is it right to SOLELY withdraw a promise made knowing fully well that somebody, whom you claimed to be dear to you, will be hurt? that it will be a mean thing to the other party? aggravated by the fact that you have been a recidivist in doing broken promises?

i say.... no.....

the words of a person to me, are my bases of knowing him. probably because, to me, my words speak of the honor i have. and honor to me is very imperative. when i say something, even if it will be too hard to attain, i see to it that ill do my best to have it realized. and if ever, despite of giving my best, still it cant be done, at least i have shown that i have tried and given my efforts to have it done. in the end though, i still hate myself for having a promise broken.

learn... learn.... and learn from your mistakes for uttering sorry is not always enough. the spirit of repentance is not the confession but the promise within yourself that repeat, you shall not commit.

i give not my forgiveness, rather understanding to a person who holds my heart.