denial; blindness and being numbed

there are times that we feel it’s too much and we can't take it any longer. times, that we tend to be fed up of the things that for quite sometime we thought were but ok. but we’re actually not. — we become in denial.

we used to say, we can handle it,... we can bear with it because it’s no big deal or maybe that we don’t want to take it seriously. its either, we're preoccupied of things and digging into it will just be a waste of time or might be that we know from the very start that the thing will just kill us with pain the reason why we leave it unnoticed. we refuse to see it , in other words because we just can’t afford to hurt ourselves with the things that we can’t change.------ we become blind.

be that as it may, we continue to live with these things every single day of our lives and actually try to inculcate into our minds that there's nothing wrong. sometimes, we even look for matters that will convince us that what is going on is actually right, trying to justify the gaffe because its a reality and we just cant escape from it. our blindness thereafter is mixed with deadened feelings with the hope that we will never wake up one day grasping the actual situation.------ we become numbed.

there are just these things we know to be not good for us from the very start but we, despite of our intelligence choose to do it still. I wonder why does man, being the highest form of creature could manage and allow some things to be done knowing fully well that it will be of his disadvantage? I wonder too, why does man tend to be so patient of ignoring the painful reality and oftentimes chooses to live with fallacy though it will kill them in the end?

I don’t know why am i asking these things. Might be that i’m just in wonder or probably wanted some stirring.

what is certain of me now though is... i don't want the feeling of being unwanted. nobody will ever be. i tell you, if you we're really sincere with your pleases of me to stay... perhaps, my questions need not be answered anymore. Prove to me that the wondering within me is nothing but s myth snf thst reality tells otherwise.