even if im alone

i have always dream of a time that i could finally spend sometime for myself and relax. i have been working the entire time and have been killing the clock just to leave everything unnoticed. i used to have a lot of excuses. too many work to be done,places to go, meetings to attend and people to serve. sigh.... its been almost like.... three years (?) and i havent really have that time for myself. now,.. finally! its here! yehey!

i dont know this place... tis is actually my first time to be here. i just saw it in the internet and indeed, its haven! i will never really reget coming here even if im alone.

im in front of my laptop, punching the keys trying to express the feeling of being here...alone but i must say... contented. impossible as it may seem but, yes, im into bliss because finally i made it! i know any reader of my blog would be in wonder what am i trying to drive at. some may even tagged me as am crazy yet,.. i really dont care. one thing for sure,.... its nice to know that finally, i could say, i have give n something for myself.... and not just for anybody else. im so happy at this point of my life because finally (again) i have managed to consider myself this time.

yes, for so long.... i thought i would never have the chance to offer anything for ME. all for the people around me... people i love,.. family, friends.. love ones.... all for them... nothing for me. sigh.... i used to asked,.. when can i finally give for myself? its been a long waiting.... and i just cant explain the feeling of finishing a castle that has been long planned in the sky. ....

i could hear the waves in the sea shore this time of he night... and its music to my ears... the place is calm and i just want to get the tranquil ambiance of this haven in my system. i really love it!

i will surely come back here.... soon.... sure, even if im alone.. i know i can be happy!