for years, i have tried my best to keep my eyes blind with the things that ought to be so vivid. i tried being frigid, unable to feel the pain despite the my heart being torn into pieces. i tried to understand and have everything into trash because i know, deep inside me, ill not consider it anyway. i thought i was in bliss, but i erred: i was in deep shit!
i was of the belief and was in great hopes that everything will be eventually fixed. i waited for sometime disregarding what others may say. i hoped and prayed. or even worst, i tried appealing, yet, still, the waiting was in vain. it never happened and truth is,... i ended up crying still. foolish me! for i allowed these things to happen? stupid, i, for i consented you to give me pain.
i know, i should be blamed myself, but what can i do, when during those times, i was blinded and knows nothing but to give what is best for the one i love? i did everything but it wasn't good enough. probably, it will never be and it will always be that way.
now, back to reality. have to pick up the pieces again. i don't know how, but i will try. besides, i have to think of myself too this time.
goodbye my love. goodbye!
